billy black
twelve steps
To a better career, to the perfect relationship
To defeat your negative behaviour
To be the best version of yourself
Each step promises more reward
But at the top, there is nothing else
You are still you
What have you trodden upon beneath
Those seductive and glittering steps?
Joys and activities to nourish your spirit
Going to the sea, reading, music and dancing
Being your own safe point in a storm
Escaping into nature, sex, springtime walks
The night sky, exploring the mysterious
The unknown, and the well within
The staircase is old and rickety
For generations we have been told to climb.
Then we will be happy and successful.
But this is an endless process
There will always be another stair to climb
We do not heal our wounds this way
Beneath the stairs, the joys of life
Not goals or achievements
But simply being alive, in our bodies, through our senses
This is where we live
Made in Winter 2017-8
and shown at contextile, Guimaraes, Portugal
in Autumn 2018
Photos by Matthew Cotsell